If there was a formula, to remove all the mosquito and mosquito-kind flying insects in the universe, whatever their contribution is to the balance of nature is - other than sucking human's blood more and more, I couldn't care less and I would pleasurably wipe them out.
Last night, just 1 of them, didn't let me sleep until 5 am.. and I have a job interview today, and I am over-cranky this morning.
I even searched for a mosquito repeller mp3 file to shut it away. I did find one, but after an hour I woke up again to that sick noise... zzzzz.zzzzzzzzz.zzzzzzz... >:(( i guess that stupid mp3 doesnt work.
Even Ginny doesnt bother hunting them anymore. We used to be a team. She located the little flying devil, and I spread the poison. Now she just takes a look and goes back to sleeping.
I really am over-cranky this morning.
sonunda günler uzamaya başlıyor.
kışı sevmediğimden değil, ama günümün çoğunun aydınlıkta geçmesini tercih ediyorum.
dediğim şeye bak. iklimlerin, doğal dengenin bile bana endeksli degisim icinde olmasını istemek ne kadar "insani" bi yaklaşım.
hayatımda bir hareketlenme yok, ama en azından bir görüşmeye çağrıldım cuma gününe. görüşme dediğim, stajla başlamamı istedikleri bir pozisyon. ama sertifika programlarına binlerce lira sarf etmektense, stajda öğrenirim öğreneceklerimi. yeni bir alana geçmeyi göze alan bendim sonuçta.
yılbaşı yaklaşıyor. büyük bir parti organize ediyoruz. şekil olarak "not exactly my taste".. yılbaşında şık, elegant bir parti organize edersem, sanırım bu ilerideki 10 yil içinde bile olmaz. benim için yılbaşı partisi, zarafetten ziyade daha cozy bir ortamı çağrıştırıyor. neticede tek başıma organize etmiyorum, o yuzden uyum sağlıyorum.. benim için yılbaşı partisi gibi olmasa da, güzel bi parti olcak.
Evet, Red Hot Chili Peppers' in muthis gitaristi gruptan ayrilmis. Artik solo calismalariyla muzik hayatina devam edecekmis. Grupta calmak yeterince tatmin etmiyormus onu. Keske ikisini bir arada yurutseydi. Ilk dinledigim solo albumunden (Shadows Collide with People) Song to Sing When I'm Lonely, duydugum en guzel ve romantik sarkilardan biriydi.. hem de akustik albumu versiyonu.. Bir de Omission. Frusciante'nin normalde kulagimin tercih etmeyecegi turde yanik bir sesi var. Ama yaptigi sarkilarda beni rahatsiz etmeyen hatta icime isleyen bir unsura donusmus durumda bu ozelligi. Adamin gruba katkilari da goz ardi edilemez ama daha da iyi solo albumler cikartacaksa, varsin ayrilsin derim.."..Böylesi bir hızla aşık olunuyorsa, bunun nedeni belki aşık olmak arzusunun, aşık olunan kişiden önce gelmesidir - gereksinim, kendi sonucuunu doğurmuştur. Aşığın ortaya çıkması önceden duyulan (ama bütünüyle bilinçaltında yatan), birisine aşık olmak gereksiniminin ikinci bir evresidir yalnızca - aşk açlığımız o birisinin özelliklerini şekillendirir, arzularımız onun üzerinde billurlaşır.."
- Alain de Botton
I hate job mining! It's like, every friggin company is looking for a candidate who has an experience of minimum 2 years. Man where's everyone getting their experiences from? Where do they start working to become adequate enough!?! URGG, I'M SO ANGRY RIGHT NOW. I have been in a "trainee" program for a year, so I definitely do not wanna start over. Yet, I have to change my area of expertise from sales to HR.. so it seems like I will be starting over in a sense. But hopefully wont last for a year. It's just really frustrating because I have sent my CV to approximately 50 or 60 spots, but only 4 of them called me back and 2 out of 4 interviewed me, and I got rejected from one, still waiting for an answer from the other (and it's been almost 2 months since the interview)..
Well I have to mention other 2 offers I have rejected. One was in an Adv. Agency and the other in a really small office.. but I have to say that I regret turning down the second one.
I feel awful tonight :( I think I'm done thinking and speaking for now.
Fransızlar ve İstanbul’lu Sokak Köpekleri
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"Whatever. None of it's working.
I've had a guy leave a voicemail for me at work,
and then I call him back at home,
and he emails me to my Blackberry,
and then I text him to his cell,
and then he emails me to my home account from the plane phone..
--and it just totally gets out of hand.
I miss the days where you had one phone number,
with one answering machine that housed one casette tape,
and either the cassette tape had a message from the guy,
or it didn't. That's it.
Now you have to go around checking all your portals and get rejected by seven different technologies.
It's exhausting!"
This is from the movie He's Just Not That Into You, quoting Mary (Drew Barrymore).. what are the building blocks of the modern world's relationships?
I think I'll sell my new camera and replace it with a new one. My favourite camera broke during my interrail trip this summer. And when I came back I just went to one of the electronics shops and bought the first one that felt sufficient to me. Well its actually a better equipped one compared to the one I broke, but I just checked my old photos and the image quality seems much more satisfying than the photos I've taken with the new one.
I think its time for me to buy a fully professional camera now. But first I gotta sell this one. I may head to Eminonu tomorrow.
I have a new project on my mind. It will help me feel less unuseful and unproductive. I'm kinda excited about the idea of the project, but its pretty challenging. From now on every observation I make, every book I read, every conversation I have, every movie I watch..even every freakin weird dream I see.. everthing will be a source for my project. I'm afraid I won't be sharing itself in public- not even privately. Because once you share an idea with someone other than yourself, it turns into a reponsibility. I don't want people asking me how the project's going and how much I've achieved since I've started.. I don't wanna feel liable to finish it. Maybe I'll never be done with it. I don't want any influence on me with this.
Okay it is obvious that I want to share it with the world! Otherwise why would I be announcing that I am starting to work on a mysterious project. But this is another thing I have to learn: Keep your mouth shut time to time! Don't be that open to everyone. Keep some stuff to yourself!
Bugun bir arkadasimla (dilara) Cukurcuma taraflarini kesfe cikalim dedik. Amac spesifik bir mekani bulmakti, ama adres olmadan, kaba bir tariften yola cikarak yurumeye basladik. Oncelikle, aslinda Cihangir'in Istiklal Caddesi'nin gobegine inanilmaz bir kestirmeden baglandigini kesfettik. Yillardir ort pas ettigimiz bu cahilligimizi itiraf ettikten sonra, vintage dukkanlarin, antikacilarin, birkac metrekarelik sevimli cafelerin onunden sohbet ede ede ve fotograf makinemizi bugun yanimiza almamis olmamiza yana yana yuruduk de yuruduk.. Ahsap kokan dar sokaklarda ilerlerken tesadufen bir de cekime dahil olarak, figuran bile olduk bugun..
What I also love about New Year is that it pushes people – in a positive way – to make fresh starts in their lives. Drastic or minor.. Some people just don’t have the inner strength to put their fist on the table and go along with their decisions. So they take New Year as the turning point for their future.